Equal and opposite reactions (part 2)

I don’t think I’m any different when I’m crossdressed, but I keep getting told by my friends that my alter ego and I have different personalities.

I put this down to two possibilities.

First, people treat me differently depending on how I’m dressed. Female friends say that they always end up having girly chat with me when I’m in a skirt, which they would never do when I’m wearing trousers and a shirt. Male friends might tell me I look good which never happens when I’m in my ‘default mode’. So ‘Twist’ gets the kind of favourable attention I normally don’t. Therefore, I react differently.

Second, I always get insanely nervous before I go out crossdressed. So I probably compensate by being more brash(?) and confident than I normally am. One of my friends insists I’m a lot cheekier (in a playful way) when I put on a dress.

The fact that my alter-ego has her own name probably reinforces all this. I didn’t intend to have a different name to begin with, but one of my friends in a writing group started calling me ‘Twisted Sister’ as a gag – this mutated to ‘Miss Twist’ and I kinda liked it; the name suited me well enough!

One of the cool things about crossdressing is that it’s like having an extra avatar in a computer game; a free ‘second life‘ to switch to when you want to try a different playing style. If people find Twist more interesting, I have no problem with that; under the wig and makeup, it’s still me who’s getting the compliments (or friendly advice!).

I am aware that I’m extremely fortunate to have a whole bunch of friends who respond so well to my crossdressing, and that I meet new people who are cool with it too. I’m also really glad (referring to part one) that the owner of a local clothes shop invited me to model some of her designs – it feels like vindication of what I do; I take it as a huge compliment!

The biggest vindication is the fact that my girlfriend is cool with it; it’s a great comfort to know that she’s happy to accept crossdressing as part of who I am. Without that security, I’m not sure I’d ever be able to do it.

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